Maybe it's him. It's been a year since we broke up and he's still lingering around in my mind. At times I feel like crying but I've come to a point where tears wont flow. Does that mean I've gotten cold? Maybe. Till now I haven't totally underestood myself nor have I found one who totally does. There were times when I felt like getting over him, taking him off mind my and moving on. But after endless trying and no success I just gave up. Just felt totally wierd. Those mistakes, how much I wish I could go back and change things. What's the use now that I have realized how important he is to me and I cant have him back? Do I just keep suffering like this my whole life long. Sometimes I feel like I'm carrying around this fake smile around everyone and sometimes it's like I'm being too open and getting everyone worried. So many questions and no answers..

God i miss him..